Dear Diary

From '06 to '07

I've lost all my bets, all the chips that I held in my hands.
I've met my worst downfall after all these years I've lived.

Throw away my genuine.
Rip my body into piecies.
Put myself in a glass uterus, you can see me, but can't touch me.
Smoke is my air, painkiller is my nutrient.
Overthrow all the concenpt I used to have,
Reset my mind back to blank.
Learn from my fear.
Reconstruct a new characteristic.

I know how weak I am,
I understand how afraid I am,
But it's time to go back to my battlefield - no matter I'm ready or not.
I'm not a Phoenix.
I'm just a soldier back from field hospital, crawing in the trench with scars on the body.

Heading back to the land covered with star flag.
Heading back to the jail for the fallen angels.
Money is the new God, power is the new belief.
Step my game up, deal me a new set of cards,
A challenge I decided to take, the intro has ended, time for the opening theme of act one.
Reserved seat is ready,
Please be seated, enjoy this puppet show just for you.
The name is Gerald, the meaning is warrior.

Watch me rise, or fall.